Our fertility journey has been a long one full of bumps and bends. We have always looked at our journey as a couple as a road; we came from somewhere and we are going somewhere and as long as we can travel it together we will overcome every road block, detour and bend. When times got tough we kept reminding each other “we have been through worse. One day we will look back at this and know it was just another bend in the road”.
We have always wanted to have a child, before we knew each other we knew we wanted kids and when we fell in love we knew that this was the person we wanted to take that on with. We day dream about it often, wondering what our child will look like. A boy or a girl? Will they be cursed with my curls or will they have Patrick’s waves? My dark hair or his dirty blonde? Will they have their dads affinity for math or are they a people person like their mum? None of it would matter, they would be beautiful no matter what, but it keeps us going at times.
We knew I had PCOS before we started and we knew it would be hard, but when the surgery failed, the pills didn’t work and all other options were exhausted it was hard to see it as a bend and not a road block.
We did IVF at Mt. Sinai and when our last little embryo took we were ecstatic. Our dream had been realized! Those few weeks were blissful and we are forever grateful for what we now call our little sesame seed. When we got the call that all was not well it shattered us. But in that pain we knew we had to try again. We knew we had each other and this was again another bend in the road.
Our doctor knew that we had tapped our resources and suggested we reach out to Fertility Friends. She said she had seen many patients in the past apply and were successful. She knew how much this meant to us and was an incredible advocate.
When we got the email that we had a meeting with Fertility Friends we held our breaths, we could feel this was big. We were both at work and quickly hurried to our cars, texting each other to make sure this was really happening. When we found out we had been chosen to receive a grant we cried. We cried on the zoom call and we called each other after and cried even more.
We feel so incredibly blessed, so thankful to everyone who read our story, everyone who supported us, everyone who made the decision to give us this chance and to everyone who donated. It is people like you who make this a reality for people like us.
While our journey has been long, every bend, detour and road block will be worth it as we look in our rear view mirror and see our little one in the back seat, kicking their little feet and enjoying the ride.
